Will

when i'm dead

a few things i wanna say before i go

saint.. u know who u r.. u must remember to sing hujan's bila aku sudah tiada.. ahahha .. dats our promise when we heard dat song played

u tell nids.. i love her mucho.. cherish all da good times i had since we were 18 till la 24 ni
tell her to go for her appointment n for god sakes.. her braces its already overdue

tell bai.. i wish her all da best in finding the right man.. she deserves da best!

tell my sister.. my mom.. i'm sorry.. i became like a shit! ahahhaha

havent decide yet on how am i going to die.

i already knocked my head hard with my fists.. already slapped my face till my lips are swollen

was thinking of turnin on the iron till its hot and knock my head till it smashes into pieces..

then i thought of drivin the car n slammed it into the wall.. much nicer n easier eh? but i'm not sure whether he drove the car or ride on his bike

then i thought of slittin my wrists.. but all da things i have are blunt.. was thinking of using the shaver. how pathetic?

then i thought of electrocuting myself

then i dunno la

then i called someone who loved me
how pathetic ???

then i cooled down

then i wrote this

but then..

i really wished i was dead