tadi

tadi ada wedding dinner.. ada lah jumpa kawan yang kenal dari alam maya.. kenal through blogging during adolescent years...

felt OLD hahahah. reminiscing all the days full of rants.. his and mine. world is really small. end up ur friend knows this fella, this fella is that fella's BFF. yada yada yada

there was something that i wanted to blog about.. now i forgot what was it about.

nites

pffffffffffftttttttttt

PFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

that's how i feel reading randomly my old posts, well posts that were listed in my pageviews.

apalah orang cari ni? merepek² yang korang baca eh?

all the ridiculous moments i had, as if i don't have them nowadays!..

ah. .my  baby is 1 year old already.. how time flies! i still remember the contraction PAIN i had.. am so lucky it only lasted for few hours... some people had to endure more than 24 hours!.. keep repeating in my head, no pain no gain, pain is only for awhile, once baby is out its gone.. over and over againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

am so lucky bai told me that later on while i breastfeed the baby, i would experience pain in my womb as it shrinks back to its previous state.. if not i would panic and think i would die because of some problem from labour.. yeah. thats me. always panicking and negative thinking! hahaha


awwwwwwwwwwwwww i dont want my  baby to grow upppp. so scared to let her off into the wild wild worlddddddddddddddd...... sobs.. nite

305

Time flies so fast!!
This date today marks the 305th day for my baby!

Thanks to instaBforBaby...if not i wouldn't notice the days, didn't event count it

. when she starts walking nanti.. confem i would cry a bucket........

The pain i had gone through pushing out this lil bundle of joy!!. hahahaha

I've missed blogging.. missed so many other things too.. but nothing can beat the feeling of being a mom.. hahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. omaigodd am a mommy now.. funny

Inevitable

I wished that you would never grow up so that you could stay happy n joyful all the time. But things cannot be like that, growing up growing old is inevitable, nothing can stop the time.

I wished that you would never grow up so you don't need to go to school, school could be boring at times, friends could be cruel sometimes, and teachers won't be FUN all the time. But things cannot be like that, i hope you would find the positive side of school, I hope you'll meet the greatest friends you could have and grow up with and hope that you would learn many many useful things.

I wished that you would never grow up, so won't get to know boys and get your heart broken, or meet the wrong people or have friends hurting you. But things cannot be like that, bad things would happen, you'd meet bad and wrong people and from there you'd learn to get up again, mend your broken heart. You'd toughen up and be strong to face the cruel world.

I'd wished for many many things if I could, but all I can wish for is you to be happy, and hope you'd have a smooth journey throughout your life. Even how bad it could be, always always remember that sometimes you have to fall really deep down in order to learn to appreciate life when you are at the top.. that's what your grandma told me.

I LOVE YOU baby..

tah

stress stress stress.. ada saje benda yg aku nk stresskan.
setiap hari setiap benda aku nk stress.. apakah aku ni gile. do i need to take out my brain n wash it clean so i dont stressed out with everything?

adakah aku terlalu takot untuk TIDAK stress n live life HAPPILY? becos bile aku HAPPY. .happy giler.. nnt benda tu mesti ilang.. sekelip mata Tuhan kata tarik balik.. Dia tarikla balik semua benda yg buat aku happy

so dari aku jadi happy n ilang.. baik aku stress ye?

matila aku camni. bunuh diri

sudah lama

yups its been awhile.. poor blog
i've been swamped with work.. what work?????????????????.. changing diapers, bathing sikenit, jadi mak mak.. bla bla bla.. boring tak?.. tak boring pon

just started online business... hmmmmmmmmmm hope it goes well.... if not.. must find work with basic/fixed pay lorh.. my sugarmommy won't last forever yaaaaaaaaaa.. so thankful for these few months.. thanks mommy

sikenit, today she slept off on her own.. funny.. cos she'd always have tantrums before she sleeps. but tonight. she had her milk, then pushed her body from my arms to lay down on the bed. then she rolled here n there n babbled a bit, n tadaa she was asleep.. she's growing so fast.. tetiba nanti da ada katil sendiri.. n tido sendiri... my pohpoh said, carry her while she still want n while u still can.. she would grow fast n might not want us to hold her anymore.. true true.. sobsss... sometimes we want her to grow quickly n do things, but when she really grows up, u wud feel a little sad.. i felt sad that day when she sat in the supermarket trolley steadily.. sobs..
even her father feels sad, she had grown! he said sikenit has grown, so tall and long, could see the difference when i carried her


blogspot has new features now.. kinda easy for lazy bum like me..

Oreo Cheesecake

yesterday i was bored at the office. so browsed through http://www.myresipi.com for any easy peasy recipes..

bumped into this oreo filling cheescake recipe.. n the ingredients is easy to get.. so walla!.. baked my own oreo cheesecake!.. most comments from people.. SEDAP!!.. AnNabilah even ordered one whole cake.. my very first order.. actually she wanted to order byk benda da previously. but i don't dare to accept laaaa.............. nnt org order jadi x sedapp.. scary!... tapi.. xpela. this time kena try!

so mom.. this is the recipe!

For the base:
2 packets of Oreo biscuit - separate the cream into another bowl
*smash(tumbuk) the oreo into oreo crumbs.. leave some biscuit unsmashed for decoration on top if you want.
1/3 cup of melted butter

Cake:
250g cream cheese
2 eggs
1/3 cup of condensed milk (susu pekat)
the oreo biscuit cream
*some of the oreo crumbs to be mixed into cake

How to?
For the based.. mix the melted butter with the oreo crumbs into your cake tray. pressed the mixture into the tray to make the base..pre-bake it for 10 minutes.. then put it aside

Cake
- beat the cream cheese until fluffy, put in the oreo's biscuit cream and mix it well.
- pour in the condensed milk.. beat it well.. then put in the eggs one by one.. mix it well..
- pour in the balance of the oreo crumbs and fold it in
- pour the mixture into the cake tray..... put the oreo biscuit for decoration...
- bake it at 150C for 30 minutes or till done

*i used steam baked method, my cake tray was put into another tray that has been filled with water.. it took me about 1 hour +++ for the cake to be done.. let it cool down in the oven (slightly open).. about 1 hour plus.. then chill it in the fridge overnight/4 hours