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Saturday, December 23, 2006

Things I've Given Up
I've given up smiling at home.cos smiling n looking like i'm happy at home attracts danger in the form of 1 step-mom. she can never NEVER rest seeing that i'm happy. which results with housechores or anything that she can think of that will make me unhappy.

I've given up saying no to family vacations.cos it doesn't matter that i dun wanna go, or that my s-mom would rather not have me following, my dad wants the whole family to go . like we're one happy family. that's what he wants. what I want means nothing.

I've given up standing up for myself.cos, no matter what, she's ALWAYS right, it's ALWAYS my fault, or my sister's fault. it's never her fault. and the fact that she's the one who married my father has nothing to do with the shitty life that she's leading now, cos it's my fault.

I've given up asking for my allowance. ( a long time ago)cos, when we do ask for money "money money money! all u know is ask for money!" and also bcos, she will remember EVERY-SINGLE-CENT that had to be spent on me or my sister. she will bring it up, every time there's a fight. EVERY SINGLE TIME.

I've given up talking to her.oh, wait a minute, conversation between us is non-existant anyway.

I've given up eating durian.not that i love durian, i dun hate it. but i gave up bcos everytime we eat durian, n ever since my sis left d house, i have to clean up. "oh, nvrmd, jus leave it, she'll clean it up" she juz walks off, oh, her children nvr have to clean up after themselves.

I've given up listening to her.whenever she rant, i go into zombie mode. nod at the rite time, walk off when she's done. works everytime.

I've given up trying to please her.there's nothing in this world that i can do to please her. n i'm not gonna waste my time trying.

I've given up coming home for the weekends.cos there's no point, it only adds on to all the stress.

but there's 1 thing i haven't given upMY LIFE


was so sad when i read it
makes me feel useless
couldnt even help my sister
all i did was ran away
yup
i ran away from the problem

biar terus ku berlari dan lari
waktu yang sama ku mencari jalan keluar dari mimpi ini -gundah,hujan-

oppressiveness

damn
feel farking depressed
no idea why
there are days dat i would just suddenly feel really really depressed. dejected.discouraged.
morosed u name it i got it all laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

rite now i blame it all to hujan
hoks
damn melancholic hiba. gundah. aku scandal
damn it even made me cried

am so curious. y do people think that i'm aggressive.. gangster like in other words.. awek ganas

hahaks
first impression of people about me.. dats too common i've heard off
stuck-up
moody
glooomy
budak cina pandai cakap melayu *duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

when they know me later
manja
loud
emo
hot tempered
caring
byk bebel

hahahaah
yes i guess i look stucked up when ppl first meet me
i have no idea y
cos when i dont smile i look like shit
hahaha
bagus per. xde orang nak kaco aku
aku lagi suka

mula² i started work after skool .. kt bukit raja east india.. damn. i became someone so bubbly frenly.. smua la suka kawan ngn aku
smpai satu JJ bukit raja tu kenal la aku

i started to hate people n world when i furthered studies kot
wakakakak
that is world
that is mass.comm.
hahaahaks
world is where u will meet all sorts of people.. nice.. bitchy.. farkers. backstabbers. 2faced
makes me feel like shit

years gone by
i dont give a shit bout people that i dont know
ahahah
xde minat dah nk berkawan ngn orang
nak bertegur newbies pon amik masa n memilih
too tired to make frens
too tired to put up pretty mask n pretend i'm nice

ahahahha
emo..
emo.. side of me.. yes.. am easily influenced.. perturbed.. affected by books.. songs.. movies..
damn.. when i read coelho's i feel so much love around me.. it gives me new impression of love
when i read harry potter.. i feel like a kid.. believing there is magic out there
when i listen to great songs.. i feel the song

ahaha
i bet everyone does

but i feel it, immersed, consumed it so deeply n greatly dat i sumtimes am influenced n produces unnecessary emotion
hahahaha
watever dat means
rite now
feel so dreary
so many reasons
so many emotions to handle
so many questions runnin through my head
so many confusions
so many unanswered questions
so many dat i sumtimes
remind myself
these are the plays of god's hand
sometimes it makes me wonder
wat lies beneath all of these
wat lessons is HE preparing for me.. wat does HE wants me learn. to see.. to observe
sumtimes am too tired to catch up
i just lay back n go with wat is written in my life... by HIS hands..

allahhuakbar..

addictive Hujan

-gundah
-bila aku sudah tiada
-aku scandal
-hiba
-kuala lumpur
-mospeada
-empayarmu
-pagi yang gelap
-mencintaimu

songlist show RMK2 (rock malaysia ke-2) betul ke?
kat planet hollywood KL

salahkan fareeq please.. aku sangat la addicted to Hujan! gara² drummer LISSA tu ada la azham.. iaitu drummer tuk Diva skali

haha
am pemalu taik kucing

akakakaka
so fareeq introduced me to Hujan. atas alasan lagu.. ah moi chantek. waakkaka.. "amoi.. am ada main ngn band ni.. ada satu lagu.. ah moi chantek.. best woo. .ala² the strokes ..kalo ko minat. ko dengarla.. nama band tu Hujan"

until now.. am so addicted to themmmmmmmmmmm
wakaka
siap promote kt kawan² ni
first few favorite songs were ah moi chantek (harusla!) haha.. pagi yang gelap

then.. kuala lumpur.. mospeada

now.. i really² like.. aku scandal.. empayar mu.. gundah.. hiba.. bila aku sudah tiada

basically.. all off their songs dat i have in my playlist best la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

noh .. cantik sekali.. suaranya bisa membuat ku sedih..
ahahhahahah

bak kata boom.. amoi mellow

cehsss

very lucky to have yus yang sama² mengikuti kegemaran musika ku
ahahhah
sharing is caring kan?
almost every show/gig mesti pegi ngn yus kan3?
am glad that sumhow we share similar taste in music!

ehhehehehehe

watever pon
suka bangat ngn hujan
wont stop supporting them

saya sudah beli album nya
tshirt nya
kamu? peminat hujan? sudah kah?

hehehehe

saturday 23rd June 2007

found these

while browsing for inspirations tadi.. found really cute clutches.
this one can be found at little black book.. tapi kt sana xde wif details/motifs only colored

this is really cute.. wonder if my mom can knit/crochet this for me.. hehehehe

very der cantik kan? leh cari kain batik buat sendri la kan.. if u know how to sew laaaaaa

cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

looking for inspirations

yup

googling around for inspirations on my 2nd clutch

ehhehehe

tamak tolll

i like this.. cause its simple yet cute.. cantik kan the gold ribbon

second clutch order basically nak color gold.. theme nyer.. gwen stefani's sweet escape nyer videoclip.. concept ala² gitu la.. ahhahahahah

truly love those badges .. buttons.. am off this saturday. rasanye nak pegi amcorp mall la..nak cari gold buttons for my clutch. ahahhaha...

oh yeah.. jezmineeeeee i forgot to tell u nak quote apa

front: molly

back i x fikir lagi ar.. hahahaha

i'll be looking for gold buttons or anythin that can be sewed on the clutch.. if i dont get it.. can u please add anything la yg cantik.. pay more pon xper.. heheheh..

but no worries... will sms u if anything k?

ooo tukar tukar la

front tu leave it without quote

back: molly

front tu u just decorate la

ok.. now i really² have to find buttons/badges/anything la for the clutch

hehehehehe

mommy ku

matilakan
baru arini mau usha mommy aku nye blog
ghupenye dia ada tag aku isk isk isk

how would i know
she never shows her blog tu pon aku tanya aritu baru mau kasi
so y show her mine..

huahauhauuahu
tgkla dia dapat cari ke x blog aku

kuang kuang kuang.. so now lets go on wif the survey she tagged me wif


A - Available or Taken: how i wished i was available.. ahhaha
B - Best Friend: close dear frens ada la
C - Cake or Pie: er... cake kot
D - Drink of Choice: coke
E - Essential item you use everyday: tissue paper.. got resdung mah
F - Favorite Color: rite now.. its GOLD
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Gummy Bears yum yum
H - Hometown: hmm born in KL, grew up mostly in PJ.. finished SPM In klang
I - Indulgence: tah
J - January or February: ada per ngn 2 bulan ni?
K - Kids & ages: nan ado
L - Life is incomplete without: goodtimes.. badtimes
M - Marriage Date or Most Memorabable Date: birthday aku la kot
N - Number of Siblings: hm originally 1 sister..additional 2 bros n 1 more sis
O - Oranges or Apples: apples
P - Phobias or Fears: dark!
Q - Fave Quote: kepala hotak ko
R - Reason to Smile: lovely frens cheerin me up
S - Season: SEASON SALeEE
T - Tag 3 or 4 People: 4 la.. -eleenodoole.. kak red.. kalo kak red baca. kudu. android
U - Unknown fact about me: how can i let u guys know.. then it wont be unknown kan!
V - Vegetable you don't like: kacang panjang kot!
W - Worst Habit: leave my stuffs scattered
X - X-rays: ? ~ 4-5 times kot
Y - Your Fave Food: mcd
Z - Zodiac Sign: capricorn

jinxed's be spoke clutch

yes peeps

i finally got my be spoke clutch by jezmine zaidan

huahauha

a bit delayed cos she was busy wif P*R*.. tau kah? tatau?? tatau xper

hehehhe

comel gile okayyyyyy n besar.. muat semua barang merepek aku

time nak amik gambo clutch tu phone aku elok plak kan leh nampak lak kan apa yang aku nak amik

cehss

i think i wanna order another one.. this time with loads gold .. ahahhaa.. matila gile gold.. nyeh nyeh nyeh..

ok here goes my clutch:

front view says "JINXED" back view "but cute"

the inside wif polka dotsss

the cutesy details.. that if it was me doin it.. i would do it painstakingly.. hahahah

and she gave me these gorgeous gold earring.. egyptian details.. ala² pharoah

sangat der cantikssssssssss

clutch is RM35.. suka hati hang nak kaler apa.. i think max 5 colors.. more info. please visit her blog.. ada link kt blah kanan tu kannnnnnn.. clickety click!

hujan

woke up yesterday (saturday) morning for work wif period pain

warghhhhhh

the laziness i tell u.. bwkkete pon dah cam initial D nye driver

tahap malas nye drive

smpai ofis

mau pengsan rasanya

i was so damn sick.. i felt like fainting.. ate breakfst.. ate ponstan..

couldnt stand it.. the aircond was so cold.. my whole body felt like bisa..

at last. i took my teddy bear and made it as a pillow.. last² masuk surau. zzzzzzzzzz.. hahah

keji

tapi nak wat camno

i real bad period pain

buat email pon 20 je

isk²

was so sick n tired of the PMS, i forgot bout the event for the nite.. that i had been waitin for so long.. luckily joe n yus sms-ed me..asking bout the nite

told joe i would go if he drove. he said ok

told yus we're goin wif joe

then we went

KL jam Asia.. hartamas

Chinta itu buta

gile lama sial nk tgu hujan perform

first band aku tgk.. analog six.. mmber² jera. anas.. n jalut. .yg lain x brapa kenal

aida n raudhah pon ada

quarter of the loft's crowd were there

bought hujan's cd at last..

best gile la dpt tgk dorg perform.. tapi cam interrupted by down people slamming here n there n nearly hit the ceiling fan.. yus found couple of coins.. ahahhaha

first song hujan played:

-skandal

then they played gundah.. then mospeada.. then hikmah.. empayar mu .. kuala lumpur.. pagi yang gelap.. ludah amerika

damn

best dowh

vocalist dia hensem.. ahahhahah

as usual.. am malu taik kucing

depan je malu

kalo kt myspace.. bkn main lancar comments dia.. cehs.. podah

hmmm

its 4.57am

am still not asleep

busan nak mampos la kan

duk edit my playlist in media player

duk dload lagu

duk edit songs for ringtones

duk transfer songs to phone

my work today sux to da max

the e-mail was down till da end of the shift.. darn

no FS workin at nite today.. cant cancel VAS cause no valid ID to do so

so i just closed da case for today

called customer and he got angry.. i got angry cause for no particular reasons he got mad at me

he didnt send the feedback that i got

siap dah gado² ni.. i was on the verge of slammin down da phone.. seb baik aku tgh pakai pc n phone G

i even raised my voice. cause i was darn tired laaa

system banyak down laa ari ni.. MIPs sams.. session db.. cam haram jadah la kan.. camne nk check semua kan vavii.. customer tu dok bebel² n he cut off watever i said.. was so damn pissed.. G was sittin nex to me listenin to my call.. i even said.. "sir, now u listen to me first" ahhaha.. G got da shock of his life.. bih tu..aku dah letih tau

at last settle gak issue.. dah .. kan senang.. dok bebel² wat per.. dari awal ko explain kan bagussssssssss

cehs..

da only thing that soothes me today.. is the OST of the korean drama MY GIRL.. love is hard.. best gile.. walaupon satu haprak aku x faham bahasa korea tu.. best nye sbb it reminds me of the series.. the sad parts that somehow relates to wat i've experience n felt.. kekekekekekke.. best gile sial cite tu.. 16 episodes.. 1 episode takes up to 1 hour .. gile peeeee.. letih tau tgk dvd tu..

seol gong chan the name of the hero .. sangat la hensemmmmmmm.. joo yoo rin the heroin.. sangat laaaa comel

ehehhehe

tired

remember i said dat i bought wardrobes / goboks from carrefour?? it arrived on monday.. cepat kan?

mak suker mak suker

tapi hazab gile nak put 'em up.. got cuts here n there.. berat gile lak tu

hari ni baru settle 2 of those almaries..

hehehhe

my room is so kemas now!!!!!!

i like i like. .mak suka.. kakakakakakakak

took some pictures

my hphone dah rosak ar.. when clicking the camera.. its all dark n black. u cant see where u're aiming at.. but lepas click capture gambo kuar.. tensennnnn.. dahla aritu beli bluetooth device pon macm² masalah.. now stuck wif logitech's bluetooth.. yg x brapa best.. argh!!

mari mari.... mak nk letak pictures

tadaaaaaaaaa

ni gobok 2 pintu

ni gobok 3 pintu.. depan katil

ni my earrings.. i like i like.. hahaha.. tapi kalo budak ofis aku dtg tgk ni ..mesti terkejut..cos i dont wear them much.. gi ofis malas la nk pakai.. over plak kan.. dahla kena pakai headset/console.. watper nk pakai earrings.. just wear those studded ones..

this is at the end of the road.. haha this is where i am at now!

iklan jap

nice bag?? i like i like

bought at pyramid yg booth murs² tu

45.90. fell in love when i first saw it.

byk color!! merah pon ada kak red!

i like the brown ones.. have 2 tones of brown.. but i already have a brown bag.. serious cantik bag ni.. besar tau

grudge bigger than ju-on's

as usual balik keje.. on pc.. dahla kena on off on off plug ni.. sbb pc aku bengong. wargh

check myspace.. check friendster.. check emails, check gmails, check multiply

n i laughed like a mad cow in my room.. y?

read on:

Of all many things by Ammo Gurl

ladies and gentlemen, i am employed. i start work on monday. the interview was, fairly easy, didn't feel like a real interview, basically chatting with the ceo. he ask me about my passion. T_Tthen another girl, who is incharge of formal interview said that the ceo wanted to put me in charge of the kickstart roadshow o_O but she said she'll let me start of with something simple first *fuish*now the problem is, do i travel all the way from klang? or do i stay in kl?

i already mentioned the idea of staying at my mom's place to my dad, he brushed it off quite quickly. as the car isn't ready for me yet, he doesn't like the idea me driving up and down everyday.so my dear father came up with the brilliant idea of my stepmom waking up early in the morning to send me to the ktm station in klang. i was like "hah?" he must've lost his mind. do you know the size of a grudge she'll be holding against me? bigger than Ju-on's, trust me. and taking the ktm, and then changing to lrt to get to work by 9? how many hours will it take??? might as well let me drive to kelana jaya lrt and from there get to my office right? so people, the 'key' he gave to me for my birthday, basically means nothing.so, any suggestions?

my comment was: "do you know the size of a grudge she'll be holding against me? bigger than Ju-on's, trust me."

u had me laughing like a mad cow in my room haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hotak kooooooooooooooo pukul brapa ko nak kuar rmh gile naik ktm? kepala dongga dia..senang cam ko ckp.. drive to KJ take LRT per susaheh lupa plak congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! am so proud of u.. *sob* adik aku dah besar sialllwelkam to workin life.. nyeh nyehh haiyah.

hahahaha i swear to god. everytime i read the part on the grudge.. i laughed like mad.. ahahahhaha

pathetic kan family aku
sangat pathetic.. but there are worse than mine out there.. so b thankful sket la ek.. :P

how to say eh.. my life was never easy.. always complicated.. or was it me myself made it complicated.. never had a normal childhood.. lovey dovey parents.. great happy moments.. nan ado.. hahahaha

i left home for studies in 2001.. at dat time.. ada gak la balik rmh time² weekends.. masuk sem 3/4.. dah xmo balik. ahhahaha.. ingat lagi.. pernah gado wif my stepmom pasal my PTPTN.. adakah dia nk pegang duit loan aku??

atas alasan "scared ur bf cheat ur money" apakah????????????? lancauuuuuuuuuu
ko pegang buku + atm card aku.. ko blasah duit aku 1000.. keji sangat.. its in my name.. y on earth would the people cari my family for repayments kan??? tapi xper.. at last.. my dad insisted that he pays for the first year yg dah tertunggak masa tu.. nak xnak. aku mmg xmo amik sebnarnya duit tu memula.. my mom said.. dont b stupid.. take it.. ahahhahaha
hamik je la.. anggapjela.. dia pulangkan duit kat aku.. tapi manader aku ckp camtu kan .. ckp dlm hati sudahhhhhhhhhhhh.. ahahahha

cant remember y i didnt want to go home time nk cuti sem masa tu.. i think it was the 3rd sem's holiday.. dah pack berbagai dah ni.. my mom htr me blik bukit raja.. smpai rumah.. berat sial kaki aku nk turun.. last² aku nangis.. ckp xmo blik sini lagi.. mommy aku sentappppp.. fine.. she said.. terus bwk aku blik rmh dia.. xmalu kan aku nih?? abih tuuuuuuuuuu x sanggup lagi aku nk duk rmh tu.. cant stand those fucking questions.. y never come home for weekends already?.. nnt dia duk check la ptptn aku kan. mana pi semua duit tu .. matila aku kan.. come to think of it.. duit aku kan.. apa kisah kan?.. u dont know my stepmom.. wicked witch! xle tgk aku senang!

cant stand the pressure.. me at home sgtla pendiam.. cam boneka bodo.. duk dlm bilik xle.. kena duk bawah.. kena pretend cam happy family.. tsk.. pathetic.. i hate dat feeling.. the trapped feeling.. really hate it!

boredom

so damn bored.. office is so damn boring nowdays.. cant browse anymore.. apakah?
last time they blocked blogspot n blogdrive.. now they blocked it all.. damn!! dahla me ACG.. have to handle most of the products.. bih tu setengah website product dia x unblock.. how stupid can u be? damnessss

me bought 2 sets of wardrobes from carrefour.. will arrive on 14th june 07.. lama lagik ek?
2 sets tau.. RM199.. 3 doors n 2 doors.. hehehe. tu pon nida call bitau ada wardrobes tu kt carrefour. terus pegi tgk

matila kan.. tuk apa? tuk handbags aku.. waaaaaaaaaaakakkaka.. gile banyak sial.. dah xlarat nk kemas.. so buy gobok.. sumbat semua dlm tu.. kalo got empty spaces.. leh beli byk handbag lagi!!!

huahuahauhauha

i have loads of bags.. from rm3.. to rm350+ gile per??
mmg gile handbags.. but i dont buy 'em everymonth ke apa.. tgk situasi la.. heheheh

me kan.. nak beli shoes baru please. no particular shoes in mind.. just thought about heels n sandals.. tapi .. letih ar nk beli kasut.. nak try² ehhehehe.. me always buy shoes when there's sale.. xde sale. malas.. hahaha.. most unworthy shoes i've bought. a pair of black heels from NOSe.. 55.90 kot. gile per.. baru pakai 2 kali dah rosak.. bengong!!

shoes cepat worn out kan.. tensennnnnnnnnnnnnnn xkn tiap² bulan mau beli. mati la pokai aku ni kan.. ni pon my salary runnin thin in da bank.. aiyakkkkkkkkkkkkk

i have the slightest idea on wat to blog.. ahhaha.. nanti la.. if terrible boredness hits me. i'll take pictures of my handbags k.. hahaha.. 2 boxes of those yg nak pakai slaloo.. ahhaha siap motivate ni tuk tukar² everyday.. always end up malas nk cari bag..ahaha

1 box of those yg KIV.. keep in view.. ahaha bole ckp camtu? ahhaha.. yg xmo pakai sangat. but just put aside for reach.. ahahha.. another plastic toyogo big box up on the cupboard.. yg dah jarang gile pakai.. ahahahhahah gile per.. begs banyak nak mampos.. syaf pn sound.. tangan dua je.. bag belambak. wakakkakaka..

i dunno y la.. if go anywhere pon.. if just window shoppin pun.. if ended up buying things.. must b handbags.. or hair accessories.. dunno y.. hmmmmmm

but not dat obsessed smpai duit abih ok!