hey kawan

tetiba lak aku jadi nyirap
sudahla cukupla mengata di belakang aku

i know that people are not satisfied with the fact that i left jaa for another guy

well hello.. i need a change in my life.. being wif a guy for nearly 7 years n leading to nowhere... how would u feel?

i know dat i always like to think so deeply that sometimes its all nonsense

i have my own reasons kenapa aku da jarang cari korang
iye.. aku malu n segan.. sebab aku tau korang mengata n tak puas hati dengan aku
tapi tu yg aku rasa n fikir

x semua camtu aku rasa

tapi kdg² aku rasa.. kenapa aku leh accept korang nye new BF/GF dengan xde rasa dengki/meluat/benci/marah. kenapa korang xle buat camtu tuk aku? kenapa aku leh faham dengan situation n feelings korang.. kenapa korang xle buat camtu tuk aku?

sorry.. these are just my rants

its hard when i always accept things with open heart.. cos i love u guys.. n some people just cant do that for me... enough with all those talking behind my back

ye.. my new bf is a bit kolot.... but sometimes. when i think about it.. its for my own good... yes at times he is very protective.. i talked bout it to him.. assuring him that.. HELLO i love u.. n please. going out with my frens doesnt mean i'm goin to leave u for good

hahaha
but come to think of it pon kan.. dulu aku slalu lepak ngn kawan².. sebab jaa slalu keje malam.. pastu main futsal.. xpon g mancing.. so aku nk lepak ngan sapa?
ngan kawan²lah.. mmgla nampak hari² aku lepak.. sebab bf aku busy ngn hidup dia sendri. hidup aku dari dulu.. mmg ngn bf aku je .. diselitkan dgn aktiviti melepak dgn kawan²...so now.. when i have someone that is attentive.. and wants to be with me.. n spend time wif me.. i cant go out wif my frens that much.. come to think of it.. dah lama kan aku x lepak? sbb.. alasannya.. aku dah makan pon.. kdg² pon aku x lepak sbb nk jimat duit.. dulu aku lepak skali pon. jaa bagi duit lagi.. sbb nak tutup mulut aku kasi dia main futsal.. FYI.. in one week. he plays futsal 5-6 days... its not wrong to BERSUKAN.. but its wrong when u neglect me..

OWH Please
am going to shut up.. please.. its nothing.. just rants n venting out

thanks for reading.
adios amigos